Sitting Alone

Ah, the life of a what if I do girl sucks.

I mean, honestly. I gave up my friends in one town for friends in another. Not exactly, but that is what it feels like right now. What exactly do I mean? Let me explain. I grew up where I work. Yeah, back to where I thought I'd never be. Anyways, I have a good job and that is what keeps me here right now. The economy isn't the greatest and if you have something you need to keep it. Well, this weekend I had to stay in my hometown because I have a fancy work thing that I must attend tomorrow night. So this Friday night I sit at home. I literally talk to two people total from what I like to call my past life.

After college I made great friends with people in North Georgia but by doing that I pretty much deleted my other friends from my life. I spend every weekend and every other moment I can in with these 'new' friends. I love them, they are the best friends I have ever had. And with that I mean that I wouldn't trade them for anything!!!

Now, here is the delima. Because I do spend every moment with the 'new' friends I have lost my old friends. When I am in my hometown on the weekends there is no one to see and nothing to do. Yes, there are two friends I still keep in touch with but they have their own 'weekend' lives and I don't fit into them. Yeah, I do live rather close to a metropolatain area, but is it worth it to be a 20-something who goes out alone. Doesn't that look desperate? Yeah, thought so. It also makes you feel worse about the entire situation. Oh well.

A little bit about the party. This is the same event that we have every year. Wahoo. I used to love formal parties but that is when we were all single and going together. May I please state how much it sucks to be the single girl at the party. Yeah. Last year someone was supposed to go but let's just say he is an ass and things didn't work out the way they were supposed to. (I may have to post a blog that I wrote about that when it happened later.) Anyways, this year I just didn't ask anyone. It isn't worth losing another friend because of it. Not that it would have happened that way. I guess I've realized that I don't have that great of guy friends--not ones that you could ask to something like that and that would actually not make an excuse. Yeah, you say that you don't know that until you try. Yeah right, I know.

On to greener pastures.
E and Blondie are having a good night it seems! Their texts are quite funny! :) I love them--crazy girls! Who knows, I may even end up hanging out with them after the party tomorrow night. It's not like I will have anything to do here.