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So I really think I may be becoming that old Vivi. The one who worked all the time and lost friends because of it. After speaking with one of my best friends I realized that I was definatly reverting.

I say this because it is hard for me to go from authoratative boss to friend. I can't sugar coat anything and don't really care to. I don't have time for the b.s. And I really don't want to be that way. I find myself being way too stern and to the point. The last thing I want to do is to hurt the people who mean the most to me.

Now-on to where this kind of all came from. Anyone who knows me well knows thay I HATE my birthday. I hate the fact that it is in December and it always causes drama.

I did find out today that two of my aunts and my cousin and I are going to a Broadway Musical the Friday before I am halfway to 50. Funny how we start doing 'older' things! Anyway, so this is something I really wanted to do and my friends kind of vetoed it because of the holidays. Okay, resort to the family. It will be fun! They are already planning dinner reservations and where to party afterwards! :)

So, the friends are now asking me when and what I want to do. I really don't know. I am doing the thing I really wanted to go do with the family-so whatever we do as friends is a bonus. Though, it is the holidays and everyone wants to come but there are Christmas parties and other functuons to contest with. But sometimes you want to be selfish and say-this is my day. Oh well, that's not me. I want to please everyone so I will do whatever they want to do. I want to spend time with them-but too many factors.

Another factor? I really don't want to be 'alone' on my birthday. I mean that I don't want to be single but I always am, so I should be used to it. I suck at relationships. Hell, I'm not even a good friend right now muchless a girlfriend. I don't know how to do relationships and don't want to learn. Oh well, I guess I get to be the single one sleeping alone on my birthday. Yay. ::oozing sarchasm::

And no-i'm not going to lower what I want in life for one event in my life. If someone doesn't think I'm worth it then neither are they.

The whole 'where I thought I would be at 25' thing is a totally different blog-to be done at a computer not from my BlackBerry in bed.

Ponder this. . .

First a little background. I've been in my current position for a little over a year. I'm finally beginning to become very comfortable with the people I work with. So yesterday, after taking my car the the dealership for a small repair, I rode with my boss to an event we had. Now, she's only two years older than I am so it defiantly keeps things interesting.

Along the way we stop at McD's for Iced Coffees and Sweet Teas. Yum! So, as we are leaving there I ask if she happened to see Lipstick Jungle the night before. She hadn't. I couldn't resist I had to ask her if she'd ever heard of the Botox to the G-Spot scenario they had had. (I mean, have you?) She honestly almost choked on her cold coffee! She was like "you can do what?," I concurred! I am still baffled by this whole thing.

Well, I figure since we've already been too open that morning and discussed this topic and because I really needed to stay on schedule with my birth control that I would just go ahead and take it. So I did. She laughed. We are becoming too open! Oh well though. We're both women and have had the birth control talk before.

So what's too open with your boss? Who knows!

On to the event. It went well. I almost died several times on the back of a golf cart by the hands of persons I work with. Flirted with a random boy, without a ring thank you, and finally came home to get ready for my next outing. Which is a blog within itself and I really need to finish my hair so I'll get to that soon enough! ;)