Another weekend

So, I'm in my 'work town' for yet another weekend. I thought I had made the point that I wasn't going to stay here? Apparently not. I am so tired of making promises to myself and then breaking them.

Promises you ask? Yeah, like the one that I wasn't going to stay at home on Friday night? Well, I sent out the mass text, I called people, I did everything but beg-and everyone was busy. Okay, fine. One night in will work.

Saturday I decided to meet up with Ann. She needed a new couch so I volunteered to go with her. Little did I know when I agreed, her roomie was still going to go. Now, it isn't that I don't like her roomie--it's just that when they are together it's like I don't even exist. Blondie even called me at one point while we were in the car and it didn't interupt anything on my end because they were talking around me--not to me. Anyways, we found her a couch! I also found a bedroom suit that I LOVED! I could have gotten it for about $1,200 cash. Should have done it--but I have no where to put it. Not that I have a full suit now, oh well!

So, I came home about ten last night. Ann and her roomie were going over to some of their friends' houses. They asked me to go, but I am NEVER comfortable there. I've tried it at least five times and I never feel welcomed. Oh well, I came home. I had a new CD when I got here. I was thrilled! I tured it up and let it go! Then I decided to just check out the Camaro site. It's up! You can actually design the car you want! Yeah, I'm gonna be broke for a long time! The one I want is going to be $38,000 without tax, tag and title. AGH! It is gonna be rough. As soon as I find out about the job I'm going to get it ordered.

Oh yeah, that. The job. Well, I had to put MY job online Friday. Yeah, I've been doing it for three months but to keep it I have to apply. Well, while I'm doing that I have decided that I'm going to go ahead and apply a few other places as well. There is no reason for me to not have a backup plan. I am going to apply at places out of town--that sounds like freedom screaming my name every time I think about it.

I'm also--stuck in the past. My dreams, thoughts, moments are filled with thoughts of the way things were. Friends that I've lost touch with, things I could have done or said differently. I truely can't be alone. It is nothing but depressing.

Next weekend is a trip south though; I can't wait. I need some fun! With the way work is, I live for the weekends and when I have nothing to do I just can't deal. I feel like I am wasting my life--oh yeah, I am.

Well, I need to get ready to go have dinner with some friends from up north. Yeah, I get to talk about how great my life is -BULLSH*T- and explain why I'm still single. GREAT.