So, I'm in my 'work town' for yet another weekend. I thought I had made the point that I wasn't going to stay here? Apparently not. I am so tired of making promises to myself and then breaking them.
Promises you ask? Yeah, like the one that I wasn't going to stay at home on Friday night? Well, I sent out the mass text, I called people, I did everything but beg-and everyone was busy. Okay, fine. One night in will work.
Saturday I decided to meet up with Ann. She needed a new couch so I volunteered to go with her. Little did I know when I agreed, her roomie was still going to go. Now, it isn't that I don't like her roomie--it's just that when they are together it's like I don't even exist. Blondie even called me at one point while we were in the car and it didn't interupt anything on my end because they were talking around me--not to me. Anyways, we found her a couch! I also found a bedroom suit that I LOVED! I could have gotten it for about $1,200 cash. Should have done it--but I have no where to put it. Not that I have a full suit now, oh well!
So, I came home about ten last night. Ann and her roomie were going over to some of their friends' houses. They asked me to go, but I am NEVER comfortable there. I've tried it at least five times and I never feel welcomed. Oh well, I came home. I had a new CD when I got here. I was thrilled! I tured it up and let it go! Then I decided to just check out the Camaro site. It's up! You can actually design the car you want! Yeah, I'm gonna be broke for a long time! The one I want is going to be $38,000 without tax, tag and title. AGH! It is gonna be rough. As soon as I find out about the job I'm going to get it ordered.
Oh yeah, that. The job. Well, I had to put MY job online Friday. Yeah, I've been doing it for three months but to keep it I have to apply. Well, while I'm doing that I have decided that I'm going to go ahead and apply a few other places as well. There is no reason for me to not have a backup plan. I am going to apply at places out of town--that sounds like freedom screaming my name every time I think about it.
I'm also--stuck in the past. My dreams, thoughts, moments are filled with thoughts of the way things were. Friends that I've lost touch with, things I could have done or said differently. I truely can't be alone. It is nothing but depressing.
Next weekend is a trip south though; I can't wait. I need some fun! With the way work is, I live for the weekends and when I have nothing to do I just can't deal. I feel like I am wasting my life--oh yeah, I am.
Well, I need to get ready to go have dinner with some friends from up north. Yeah, I get to talk about how great my life is -BULLSH*T- and explain why I'm still single. GREAT.
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Sunday, March 22, 2009
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Old friends, memories, judgements and haunted houses
So last night I did go out with my friends from high school. These were good friends then, but as time will do we drifted apart. It was very interesting to see how we have really all changed. I hadn't hung out with them since January of this year. The last night I had seen them was a cold night when a terrible accident happened. So honestly I related them to a really bad night. Now they had nothing to do with the accident but because I was with them before it happened I related them to it myself.
Now, on to dinner. We went to Ruby Tuesdays just for dinner. I am ready for a drink. Nothing says old high school pals like sitting there wondering how this is all going to work out. So I order my beer and we begin talking about old times. About the times when we had fun at another friends house... about what might have been had we known what we know now then.
Oops, I didn't tell you who all was there! It was just myself, Ann, and Jessica. Always an intersting group... or at one point it was!
Ann is the one who hung out with the unusual crowd. She was always great--but sometimes different. Her current boyfriend of a year and a half is um, different. Not someone I would ever think of dating. Just... different.
Now, Jessica. She was ALWAYS the crazy loud one. She has lost about 50 pounds since high school and has a new boyfriend who she met through another mutual friend. She is still as crazy as ever and likes to question people to get more information/gossip out of them.
So, we eat dinner and continue to talk. It is good to talk to people about random stuff. I end up telling them about my little drunken text to L. They laugh and think it is hillarious! (BTW-Jessica's boyfriend is L's best friend.)
Next we talk about a time that Jessica and I went out with another friend who I will call Nicole. This happened about a year ago. At this point in time Jessica and I were both single and Nicole was married to one of our good friends from high school. Nicole ended up being the 'single' one that night and making out with this guy and giving him her number. It was bad. We discussed the 'should we have told her husband' thing at length. Looking back, I want to say yes. Her husband adores her... he still does. Currently they have three children. What is going to happen in the future when she decides to do something again and the kids are part of it? What happens when she hurts our friend. We discussed it all and decided that for now it was in the past and unless it came back up we would keep it quiet.
Laughing, joking, and stories go on for about two hours. It was good to talk; to see wha
t we had all been up to. Next we decide to go ahead and head to the Haunted House. I personally loves the thrill of being 'scared to death.'
Jessica's boyfriend meets us at the Haunted House. We go in and honestly, it sucked. But that's okay. That happens! We had fun laughing at each other though! After that we all dispersed.
Is it weird that though some things never change it was like everything had? It was like we didn't really scratch anything under the surface, we just kept things very polite. I don't know, it was good to see them but I know we will never be the friends we once were no matter how hard we try.
On a random side note, Jessica's sister is the one who was being sat up with the cute cop I had met the night before. It was very interesting-she asked me what I thought about him.
Now for today. I have to go to the funeral home and then photograph a wedding for a friend. After that I'm going to meet up with another friend and see a movie.
Oh, and tomorrow night--I'm excited about this one--I'm going with a few friends to see a comedy show that includes a very funny lady and male strippers. This is going to be good!
Now, on to dinner. We went to Ruby Tuesdays just for dinner. I am ready for a drink. Nothing says old high school pals like sitting there wondering how this is all going to work out. So I order my beer and we begin talking about old times. About the times when we had fun at another friends house... about what might have been had we known what we know now then.
Oops, I didn't tell you who all was there! It was just myself, Ann, and Jessica. Always an intersting group... or at one point it was!
Ann is the one who hung out with the unusual crowd. She was always great--but sometimes different. Her current boyfriend of a year and a half is um, different. Not someone I would ever think of dating. Just... different.
Now, Jessica. She was ALWAYS the crazy loud one. She has lost about 50 pounds since high school and has a new boyfriend who she met through another mutual friend. She is still as crazy as ever and likes to question people to get more information/gossip out of them.
So, we eat dinner and continue to talk. It is good to talk to people about random stuff. I end up telling them about my little drunken text to L. They laugh and think it is hillarious! (BTW-Jessica's boyfriend is L's best friend.)
Next we talk about a time that Jessica and I went out with another friend who I will call Nicole. This happened about a year ago. At this point in time Jessica and I were both single and Nicole was married to one of our good friends from high school. Nicole ended up being the 'single' one that night and making out with this guy and giving him her number. It was bad. We discussed the 'should we have told her husband' thing at length. Looking back, I want to say yes. Her husband adores her... he still does. Currently they have three children. What is going to happen in the future when she decides to do something again and the kids are part of it? What happens when she hurts our friend. We discussed it all and decided that for now it was in the past and unless it came back up we would keep it quiet.
Laughing, joking, and stories go on for about two hours. It was good to talk; to see wha
t we had all been up to. Next we decide to go ahead and head to the Haunted House. I personally loves the thrill of being 'scared to death.'Jessica's boyfriend meets us at the Haunted House. We go in and honestly, it sucked. But that's okay. That happens! We had fun laughing at each other though! After that we all dispersed.
Is it weird that though some things never change it was like everything had? It was like we didn't really scratch anything under the surface, we just kept things very polite. I don't know, it was good to see them but I know we will never be the friends we once were no matter how hard we try.
On a random side note, Jessica's sister is the one who was being sat up with the cute cop I had met the night before. It was very interesting-she asked me what I thought about him.
Now for today. I have to go to the funeral home and then photograph a wedding for a friend. After that I'm going to meet up with another friend and see a movie.
Oh, and tomorrow night--I'm excited about this one--I'm going with a few friends to see a comedy show that includes a very funny lady and male strippers. This is going to be good!
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