Ah, the way life is.

So, I got the job. Yup, blessing or curse? Not sure yet. It doesn't really tie me here, yet again it does. Not like it really matters though. I have no where else to go.

Cop is dating some girl named Tracey who rodeos. That is all I know, per Facebook. But you can't help but to know that when it shows up on your threads. Oh well, best of luck! :)

There is a concert on Monday, should be interesting. I've FINALLY gotten rid of all my tickets--which would have been easier if some people weren't um... seeing too many men at once? NOT ME, but someone else. I ended up selling two of the tickets to someone I used to be semi-interested in. He's bringing his girlfriend. Oh well, at least I'm not out $80 bucks. Later in the week there is a Chesney concert. Yup, I still have an extra ticket to that. I don't do the lawn for Chesney, and really want to have a good time. Who knows, I might just end up sitting by myself. I'm tired of everyone wanting to do shit then backing out. Screw it. I also got a hotel room for that night, by myself. I might just sit up there with two seats. Yup, spread me and my cold beers out.

What else? Oh, even though I got the job it changes nothing. I'm no happier than I was before. No one seemed to care that I got it either. I think that has really sucked. There was no, let's go to dinner... nothing. That hurts. I go out of my way to do stuff for my friends--send cards, bring gifts, and in return there is generally nothing. So sorry, I'm not going out of my way to meet up anymore. People might get a card, if they're lucky. Certain people keep saying I've changed--well I have, I'm tired of being used. When I've really needed things there's been no one there. I know that not everything is there fault, but there are times when I'm emotionally drained too.

And yes, I did go out Thursday night but that is because 1-I invited myself and 2-I'm doing some PR work for the band I saw. Yes, I drove up there by myself--so it wasn't that fun. I'm GREAT at putting on appearances. I guess that is why I do PR.

PS-It is very humorous to me at when I typed in 'blessing or curse' into Google images that a DBT album cover came up.

The way life goes...

So I've played phone tag with the cop for over a week. We've actually only spoken on the phone once--which would be a week ago on Friday. We still haven't heard each others' voices more than about five times which includes the voice mails. My friend who is actually the link between us keeps asking if we've talked. I think she is the one who may have the heart attack. LOL It sucks that being this busy gets in the way of everything. By that I mean several things.

Work is crazy. I had two late nights this week which included one education banquet and one night of financials. Hopefully I will have some idea about the job on Monday. Who knows though. Right now I just want to move far away and start over.

My grandmother was in the hospital for over a week but got to come home on Thursday. They should have kept her. She is still very sick--but she is also very lazy. I have no sympathy if a person doesn't at least try--and right now she isn't. I may regret those words some day--but I want her to be better! I don't want her to just sit there! Last night when I left work, I went back to the pharmacy to get her more medication. Then I got to go through 17 bottles of meds and put them in her weekly pill box. How a person can survive with that much running through their veins I 'll never understand. After that I was exhausted. I don't like having that much responsibility for someone when I really don't know what I am doing... plus the nurses directions were a bit-strange. Now we are waiting on her sister to call us when she boards a plane in LA on her way here so we can get to the airport to pick her up. I have a feeling I may be going to the city at three a.m.

I'm also going to be taking care of my best friend's girls at some point this weekend. Bf's grandfather passed away accidentially yesterday and she, her husband and their two little girls are coming north for the funeral. The girls are three and four so she doesn't want to take them to everything--so I'm going to keep them. I miss my girls--but literally, it has been over a year since I've seen them. It should be interesting! I know that they'll end up spoiled! I miss seeing them--they are the closest I will ever have to my own it seems.

Other than that? I just wish things were going differently. I got lemons, where is the long island iced tea? I could use a mixer!

Two shot glasses and a bottle of tequila with nothing but time on my hands

So it's been forever since I've had time to write anything on here! Let me tell you a little bit about my life so it puts into perspective how busy a single girl in a smallish town can be!

1-I have a job that is semi-political and sometimes takes more time than it should. I work from 8-5 and never take a lunch. After work many times I have social events that I have to attend in order to keep up with everyone else on a business standpoint.

2-I am a member of a community based club. I am on the board and generally have about 8 nights a month that I have meetings that might last about three hours each.

3-I try to see my friends. I don't like to be alone because it gives me too much time to think so if I'm not working or doing community work I try to be with people.

4-I work out. Sometimes at the gym sometimes just running in town. You'd be surprised at how much time that can take up if you really get into it!

5-My niece takes a lot of time. I love her and try to spend at least one evening a week with her.

6-Since getting the BlackBerry about three weeks ago I am ALWAYS connected. I love it but wonder sometimes!

Now that you know that let's move on.

A lot has changed in the past two weeks. I don't know how, why, or if I even like it but it has. I've learned who the people are who are there for you, I've learned that sometimes honesty is the best policy even if it hurts people, and that you should always say what you think because if you don't it WILL come back to bit you in the ass.

So, I'm dealing with all of that right now. But on top of that, last night I stayed in my home town and decided to meet up with an old friend and go to the High School football game. Well, she was coming in from out of town so while I was waiting on her I was invited to a tailgate at a friend from work's house.

I get there and go in. Interesting. One of the people there used to be an old instructor of mine and she was sitting next to this cop. Well, come to find out my friend was trying to set up the old instructor and the cop. Haha, well he ended up talking to me more than he did her! Well, dinner is over and time for the game.

I meet my friend, Brooke, and we head in. Let me just tell ya, it is so much fun to go back to a game. RIIIGHT. So I see several people that I know from work, a few from school, and we just generally hang out and talk. Well, we decide to visit with friends and their three kids down next to the fence line. There are huge Leyland Cypress trees down there, now mind you they were not there when we were and we are not that old, so the cops were down there keeping the kids out. The cute one, who I talked to earlier, came over and was like. I told you to stay out of there! We joked, flirted and laughed. Well my work friend comes over later and is like, they tell me you are causing a ruckus down here in the trees. I laughed and looked over at the cop, well--it's his fault he keeps busting me! You should just give me the keys to your house and then at least I would be in private. I thought she was going to bust a lung! :) It was rather good if I do say so myself. So he laughed and thought I was funny... so we will see if anything comes from that. Most likely not, but I am going to make sure to ask her about him next week.

He isn't like OMG hot, it's not like the first time I met someone else... but ya know--it is time to move on and what if it is only a few dates. At least it is something and not trying to avoid the issues.

Speaking of issues, I can't get Don Juan out my mind. I want to know that he's okay. That I still have a friend. Maybe I'm being stubborn by not calling/texting him but I really think it is his move.

So I'm fixing to head out with some of the friends I met up with last night to dinner and a haunted house. Should be interesting. Might even have to admit to my drunken dialing of our mutual friend who I will call L. See what they think of that one. Not sure if this is a girls night or if it is a joint thing--we should see. Nothing would make me happier than for him to be there too!

I swear I can be by myself, I've done it for forever but I need someone to help complete something in my life.