So, I got the job. Yup, blessing or curse? Not sure yet. It doesn't really tie me here, yet again it does. Not like it really matters though. I have no where else to go.
Cop is dating some girl named Tracey who rodeos. That is all I know, per Facebook. But you can't help but to know that when it shows up on your threads. Oh well, best of luck! :)
There is a concert on Monday, should be interesting. I've FINALLY gotten rid of all my tickets--which would have been easier if some people weren't um... seeing too many men at once? NOT ME, but someone else. I ended up selling two of the tickets to someone I used to be semi-interested in. He's bringing his girlfriend. Oh well, at least I'm not out $80 bucks. Later in the week there is a Chesney concert. Yup, I still have an extra ticket to that. I don't do the lawn for Chesney, and really want to have a good time. Who knows, I might just end up sitting by myself. I'm tired of everyone wanting to do shit then backing out. Screw it. I also got a hotel room for that night, by myself. I might just sit up there with two seats. Yup, spread me and my cold beers out.
What else? Oh, even though I got the job it changes nothing. I'm no happier than I was before. No one seemed to care that I got it either. I think that has really sucked. There was no, let's go to dinner... nothing. That hurts. I go out of my way to do stuff for my friends--send cards, bring gifts, and in return there is generally nothing. So sorry, I'm not going out of my way to meet up anymore. People might get a card, if they're lucky. Certain people keep saying I've changed--well I have, I'm tired of being used. When I've really needed things there's been no one there. I know that not everything is there fault, but there are times when I'm emotionally drained too.
And yes, I did go out Thursday night but that is because 1-I invited myself and 2-I'm doing some PR work for the band I saw. Yes, I drove up there by myself--so it wasn't that fun. I'm GREAT at putting on appearances. I guess that is why I do PR.
PS-It is very humorous to me at when I typed in 'blessing or curse' into Google images that a DBT album cover came up.
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Oh sweetie I just read this post and I'm so sorry you felt like no one cared!! We are all so proud of you!! And we do care.... you just got to remember to tell us! lol I have been waiting on a excited call saying you got the job so when I asked if you got it and you were like yeah on wednesday I took it you weren't real happy about it. ~ We have to get you back in a more positive mood and out of this funk you been in!! I love you!!
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