Friday The 13th

Ah the life of a "what if" girl is always interesting; and full of questions and never enough answers (or so it seems). So as I checked my horoscope this morning.... yes I am one of 'those' people...... I had to laugh:

Your horoscope for February 13, 2009
You are likely in a quiet, reflective mood today, E. It may be that you receive a communication from an old friend who sets your mind thinking back to the good old days of your youth. You can't help but look at some of the pivotal decisions you made in your life and wonder how your life would be different had you made different choices. This is a pointless game to play, E. Rather than wondering about "what if," your time would be better spent embracing what you have.

So apparently I need to stop thinking about the "what if's" of the past, which I have been doing lately, and look toward the future. Which sounds like a great idea to me!!! It's just easier said then done. All holidays no matter how big or small remind me of holidays past. And the dreaded V-Day is no exception. I recall how X went to 4 different stores one year just to find my favorite candy. It didn't help that I found my gift from last V-Day as I sorted thru boxes yesterday. X could be an ass, but he could also be sweet and thoughtful to when the planets were in perfect alignment. Which makes me question the "what if's" of the past. The wondering if I made the right decision or if I have cursed my self to eternal damnation.

I will try to take the advice that has been laid out for me though and stop wondering and start embracing. After all it's Friday. It's warm out. Therefor I am in a great mood! Ah how I love the coming of spring!!

As I go to press publish I see a woman coming towards the office. In her arms is a huge bouquet of flowers.... I see my favorite lily's among them and know it can't be coincidence. They must be for me. And they are..... as the lady hands them to me I eagerly take the card out from amongst them curious to see who they are from. I expect them to be from my mom.... my dad always sent me flowers for V-Day.... but they are from Babbles and her husband. So thoughtful and so beautiful! I almost cry as I read the card. You know I am very lucky. I may not be lucky in love but I have the best luck when it comes to friends. Cause I truly have the best there is! Without Vivi, Vixen, Blondie, Babbles, Giggles, Conscious, Punk-Rock-Chick, and Alice life would not be nearly as interesting!

"I'm going to get Jake but I leave the front door unlocked in case Satan shows up to collect your soul."

~ Alan, Two & a Half Men ~

Friday

There's something about Friday... something in the air you can actually feel. Every one's nicer, the day hopefully passes more quickly and the promise of a fun weekend is knocking at your door. Well at least at mine. Because with my new "go get it" attitude I'm determined me and my girls are going to have a good weekend! Tonight I'm loading my horse on the trailer and going barrel racing. Ah a night at the horse shows equals a perfect night for me. I mentioned it to Big but you know this is almost a part of my life I would like to keep separate. You know my thing. What makes me happy; win or lose. Is that selfish? Part of me would like to invite him, but then I'd have to deal with him all night and not get to concentrate on myself having fun? Is that selfish? Well if so it's about time I'm being a little selfish!